Mommy, Mikhail and I went to Colton's 6th birthday party last night at the Clubhouse. It was a blast, minus the 115 heat index. It was great having so much family together! He is really into Pokemon so Kristen did an amazing job (as always) decorating and making it super fun for all the kiddos! She is so creative, sadly I missed out on that gene! I loved getting to see Jordan and Tara! I have missed them so much. It broke my heart when Jordan came to me and said "will you pick me up and hug me". They are doing so well!
Mom is doing well. She is still on 3L of oxygen but she has been able to get out a little bit. We even went to the eye doctor on Friday! Don't worry, I am still legally blind, but the eye doctor can get me to 20/25 so I will still be able to drive! Mom had gained too much weight in a very short amount of time (it was all water weight) so we made an unexpected trip to Oklahoma Heart Institute to get her medication changed. They did a chest x-ray and everything is looking much better! She is doing great in physical therapy. She has been able to walk the stairs and shower with just a little help! We finally got longer tubing for her oxygen so she can keep it on at all times!
Oh my gosh! Aunt Joyce is in town! I saw her and hugged her for approximately four hours. I have missed her. She truly is like a second mom to me. Its so weird, we can go two months with not seeing each other and all of us pick up right where we left off. She is an amazing friend to my sweet momma and a great Aunt to me!
Well today has been a rough one! Mikhail and I took Macy to the vet this afternoon because she had been coughing and sneezing and just seemed miserable... My biggest fears were confirmed; she has kennel cough. She was vaccinated against it but there are different strains of kennel cough (like the flu shot in humans) so she was a very unlucky puppy. The vet gave her liquid antibiotics and a cough pill. I am just hoping she doesn't spread it to Butter or either of Mickeys parents dogs. Bella has it as well.
Mikhail has been cooking every night! He has cooked every meal and has been trying to teach me to cook, too. I am so impressed with the food he comes up with! He can go into our kitchen and make something delicious with limited ingredients, and its ALL healthy and gluten free! We have had so much fun!
Oh, I checked the mail today and got a piece of mail from Saint Francis, I was expecting a huge bill and it was actually a small check! Things are great!
Saturday, July 18, 2015
Sunday, July 12, 2015
Quotes, Goals, and Some Jesus
Goals
1. My value does not decrease based upon someones inability to see my worth…
2. If it doesn't encourage or support me, inspire or engage me, develop and challenge me… get rid of it. Being unhappy is part of life; staying that way is a choice…
3. "There are far, far better things ahead than any we leave behind." C.S. Lewis
4. Dear God, if today I lose my hope please remind me that your PLANS are bigger than my dreams…
5. Until God opens the next door, praise HIM in the hallway…
Being Thankful
These are the five most important lessons that I need to learn for my life. My God is bigger than any problem I could possibly face or any part of my past that continues to hurt me. I have so many wonderful things to be thankful for. I have my family that I know would do anything for me; they have continually proved this over and over agin. I have a man in my life that is probably the sweetest thing God ever created; he continually treats me like a princess and I love him dearly. I have so many doctors that are trying to help me get well. I have new friends and old friends that help keep me going when I think I have nothing left to give. I have my sweet, sweet Macy and Butter that cuddle me even more when they know that I'm not feeling well.
Goals For July
1. Make and Stick to a Budget. bahahaha. Okay, so we all know that Sara has tried to do a budget before… FAILED MISERABLY. There was no hiding it. Old Navy deciding that I needed a new wardrobe. That generous police officer that decided I needed to pay the City of Tulsa $711. Macy's pet insurance (which I assure you is absolutely necessary seeing as her medical bills match mine most months) was due to renew. Chipotle's obvious schemes used to get me specifically to eat there twice a week. So, this time I will try to make a budget that is completely easy to attend to and follow it. Or at least try my hardest.
2. Follow my Agenda. I specifically bought a new agenda thinking that it would motivate me to write appointments in and have a way to follow it… Living my life relying on my cell phone calendar is probably not the most responsible thing I could be doing. I am 26 it is time to pull up my big girl panties and do what I need to do.
3. Change my Last Name. Okay so this is something that I have been thinking about for the past 15 years. For personal reasons I will not discuss why this needs to be done, but I promise it does. I am changing it to my Mommy's last name. I have the papers to start the process… I just need to start filling out that paperwork and take it down to the courthouse to file. (YAY!). Oh, and don't get me started on the whole "well you'll be getting married soon why change it"… I will hurt you.
4. Be more proactive in my team. I have some very serious mental health issues and my team is the group of people that is trying to help me. This includes an Intensive Outpatient Group, Therapist, Psychiatrist, Mikhail, my Mom, and Me. I am supposed to be the leader of my team. I am slowly learning that I am not my illness, but it has been a daily struggle to even get out of bed some days. Some days the issues I am dealing with are too difficult to face. I am trying. I am doing the best I can with what I have. I need to take my medicine, I need to show up to therapy, and I need to talk and listen more.
5. Make Better Choices for My Life. I graduated college almost 2 years ago… I'm sure the ramen noodle diet is probably not going to be appropriate much longer. (I will always bleed crimson and cream! #proudalumni #boomersooner). I am thinking about starting some light yoga that won't put too much pressure on my arm. Believe it or not, I am actually thinking about voluntarily going back to physical therapy for my arm (I know I'm crazy, right?). I need to take Macy on more walks. She loves being outside and can't help it… I love every ounce of that puppy!
1. My value does not decrease based upon someones inability to see my worth…
2. If it doesn't encourage or support me, inspire or engage me, develop and challenge me… get rid of it. Being unhappy is part of life; staying that way is a choice…
3. "There are far, far better things ahead than any we leave behind." C.S. Lewis
4. Dear God, if today I lose my hope please remind me that your PLANS are bigger than my dreams…
5. Until God opens the next door, praise HIM in the hallway…
Being Thankful
These are the five most important lessons that I need to learn for my life. My God is bigger than any problem I could possibly face or any part of my past that continues to hurt me. I have so many wonderful things to be thankful for. I have my family that I know would do anything for me; they have continually proved this over and over agin. I have a man in my life that is probably the sweetest thing God ever created; he continually treats me like a princess and I love him dearly. I have so many doctors that are trying to help me get well. I have new friends and old friends that help keep me going when I think I have nothing left to give. I have my sweet, sweet Macy and Butter that cuddle me even more when they know that I'm not feeling well.
Goals For July
1. Make and Stick to a Budget. bahahaha. Okay, so we all know that Sara has tried to do a budget before… FAILED MISERABLY. There was no hiding it. Old Navy deciding that I needed a new wardrobe. That generous police officer that decided I needed to pay the City of Tulsa $711. Macy's pet insurance (which I assure you is absolutely necessary seeing as her medical bills match mine most months) was due to renew. Chipotle's obvious schemes used to get me specifically to eat there twice a week. So, this time I will try to make a budget that is completely easy to attend to and follow it. Or at least try my hardest.
2. Follow my Agenda. I specifically bought a new agenda thinking that it would motivate me to write appointments in and have a way to follow it… Living my life relying on my cell phone calendar is probably not the most responsible thing I could be doing. I am 26 it is time to pull up my big girl panties and do what I need to do.
3. Change my Last Name. Okay so this is something that I have been thinking about for the past 15 years. For personal reasons I will not discuss why this needs to be done, but I promise it does. I am changing it to my Mommy's last name. I have the papers to start the process… I just need to start filling out that paperwork and take it down to the courthouse to file. (YAY!). Oh, and don't get me started on the whole "well you'll be getting married soon why change it"… I will hurt you.
4. Be more proactive in my team. I have some very serious mental health issues and my team is the group of people that is trying to help me. This includes an Intensive Outpatient Group, Therapist, Psychiatrist, Mikhail, my Mom, and Me. I am supposed to be the leader of my team. I am slowly learning that I am not my illness, but it has been a daily struggle to even get out of bed some days. Some days the issues I am dealing with are too difficult to face. I am trying. I am doing the best I can with what I have. I need to take my medicine, I need to show up to therapy, and I need to talk and listen more.
5. Make Better Choices for My Life. I graduated college almost 2 years ago… I'm sure the ramen noodle diet is probably not going to be appropriate much longer. (I will always bleed crimson and cream! #proudalumni #boomersooner). I am thinking about starting some light yoga that won't put too much pressure on my arm. Believe it or not, I am actually thinking about voluntarily going back to physical therapy for my arm (I know I'm crazy, right?). I need to take Macy on more walks. She loves being outside and can't help it… I love every ounce of that puppy!
Wednesday, July 8, 2015
Truths
His Embrace
I fail, daily.
I am not perfect in any fashion…honestly I often find myself running from perfection.
I am a sinner.
A dirty, thoughtless, selfish, lustful, greedy, rude, arrogant sinner.
I break promises.
I’ve bruised hearts with harsh words.
I fall into temptation over and over and OVER again.
I judge, even though i hate it.
I’m absolutely broken.
I’ve been a quitter.
I’ve put God last.
Thankfully…
His embrace is one that heals.
He reaches into the core of my being, the threads of my soul and says: This one is mine.
I am HIS.
Redeemed.
Rescued.
Restored.
The sins i struggle with…forgiven.
The fear that grips my spirit…broken.
The love i’ve abandoned…present.
His embrace is one that heals…
I fail, daily.
I am not perfect in any fashion…honestly I often find myself running from perfection.
I am a sinner.
A dirty, thoughtless, selfish, lustful, greedy, rude, arrogant sinner.
I break promises.
I’ve bruised hearts with harsh words.
I fall into temptation over and over and OVER again.
I judge, even though i hate it.
I’m absolutely broken.
I’ve been a quitter.
I’ve put God last.
Thankfully…
His embrace is one that heals.
He reaches into the core of my being, the threads of my soul and says: This one is mine.
I am HIS.
Redeemed.
Rescued.
Restored.
The sins i struggle with…forgiven.
The fear that grips my spirit…broken.
The love i’ve abandoned…present.
His embrace is one that heals…
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