Day 20:
Today I got to see my mom! It was the best feeling I've ever had. Just seeing her and knowing that she was okay put my mind to instant ease. I have been going crazy at Aunt J's house while I've been on lock down mode from bronchitis and she's been able to go up there! I am so jealous! I am pretty positive I had the biggest smile on my face for at least the first hour I was there. My mom was moved back to a non-icu floor! Holy cow! Last Friday, I never thought we would be here. To be honest, I wasn't even sure she would be here. (That is something this mommy's girl would never admit) She was struggling. Struggling is probably not even a scary enough word to what she was experiencing. They have now figured everything out and are doing everything in their power to give her the best care possible! Dr. Kempe even mentioned her possibly going home on Friday! She had such a sweet nurse today. I could tell she had been taking good care of my mom. We watched Dr. Phil as they took my moms central line out and put in the port. That was pretty graphic, and I probably should have listened to the nurse to leave when she was doing it, or at the very least turn my head. I'm not usually squeamish but holy cow!
I am right where I need to be. For the first time in my life I feel like I am doing more than surviving my life... I'm living it! And loving it! I am exactly where God wants me to be and I am learning to trust that. I am learning so much. Holy cow, therapy today was a blur. I found myself doing something I have never done before... Listening! I've always gone through the motions of listening, but I don't think I've ever really listened to someone without constantly thinking of my reply. For the first time in my life it wasn't about me. It was so refreshing! I was able to convey exactly how I felt, things that I have been dealing with, and things I have been avoiding with ease. I won't say that I am magically cured or completely better, but its so wonderful to not be the center of my world. I can now see other people for what and who they are. I feel like this has shed a whole new light on things. I am so excited for what lies ahead of me.
Also, how long is this cough going to last?
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